Impatient
I am growing impatient. I am not patient and I know this about myself. I am a doer. When I want something I make it happen I trust in my agency, but I thought I would be in contact with a mom by now. I am not even to the average time with the agency, but it is hard. All it takes is one mom, the right mom. I am so ready to be a mom. I have written a few blogs but I don't publish them because I don't want to bring anyone down. I know it is hard to hear, hard stuff to talk about. I will keep putting in the universe to get a baby, I will keep asking for prayers. I will keep telling my story. I still feel like I grieve the loss of having a baby, I know that once I get my baby the emptiness in my heart will be replaced by love. In December I had my phone call, my profile had gone out to 30 moms, and been viewed nearly 8,000 times online I know I had shared this. I just wanted to give an update, I am still here. I am still waiting. Some days are easier than other...