I hit submit

Let me be clear, I am just beginning the process, and by no means am I an adoption expert! I don't know how much to write or how much to share, I am a very transparent person and will probably overshare from time to time. 

As soon as I found out I needed a hysterectomy, I switched gears and started towards adoption, I have always wanted to be a mom.  I reached out to a friend my friend Charity, to find out what agency she used. I began diving into the deep reaches of the internet on adoption. A lot of my coworkers suggested I get in touch with Jill, a former ER nurse who also adopted, also a cousin of my friend Bridget.  I reached out and started researching the agencies that were recommended to me. 

I always thought I would do foster care when my kids were older (when I still thought I could have kids) I know a couple of people who had foster babies from when they were a couple of days old until around age three, and after age three the kids went back to bio parents. After learning I could no longer have kids, I quickly realized that if I was a foster parent and had my baby given back to bio parents after a long time it would crush my heart and soul. 

I started researching the agencies. I looked at what was required with each agency. I have spent significant amounts of time looking at their application. I am afraid of rejection,  I didn't know what to say about myself.  I wanted to portray myself correctly. I kept trying to get myself motivated to fill out the application.

My little motto to try and motivate myself, has been if I don't fill it out I can't be picked, on Tuesday evening I sat down and filled out the application, I requested some feedback from my friends and I made myself hit submit. Even just getting to submit was intense, immediate nerves. 

Yesterday I received an email with some basic info, and asks you to call them to set up a further in depth interview, after the interview the agency takes approximately one week to decide if you are a good fit/ good candidate for them. 

My FaceTime interview is on Monday morning.  I should know a lot more in the next couple of weeks.  Here is me putting myself out there and hoping to be a good fit for the agency and getting selected to taking the next steps of becoming a Mom.